Part 4 of 4

"Death 4"

The death of Beloved
is like pre-transition to your own death
Die with her
or
Live Life newly, as ever-
knocking Death
never vanishes
but you Live more fully

I take the second part

Part 3 of 4

"Death 3"

It's like flying far, far away
-The death of someone loved
estrangement
everything you could do Can't bring her back
Don't know what to do (because
Everything has changed)
your heart
tries to Beat

Part 2 of 4

"Death 2"

Finding my weakness
Finding my faults
Ripping my heart out through my chest
I stand bleeding, weeping, wounded
I fall down at Your feet

Taking all the me I've ever known
And yanking away from it

Letting go of my gifts
Letting go of my talents
Gouging out my eyes with hot pokers
I stand blinded, shrieking, scorched
I kneel down asking for mercy

Taking all the me I've ever liked
And disassociating myself from it

Giving You my heart
Giving You my soul
Numbing my senses, beyond compare
I stand stripped, calloused, and cold
I bow down seeking Your grace

Taking all the me I've ever had
And unhaltingly presenting it to You

All of me could never be
Without all of You

Part 1 of 4

"Death 1"

Bloom
Being created
And being alive.
Standing firm,
Though wind and rain,
Cold and heat.

Nighttime
Peaceful transgression
Folds, curls, sleeps.
Yet temporarily
Forever awaken
In a world of new light

Something a little different

So I thought I'd try something a little different this time. I'm going to post 2 poems- 1 that I wrote my senior year of high school and then 1 I wrote last week. My next post will be an exposition of them, but I'd really like your feedback.


"Endless Nothing" 12/22/02

Floating constantly
In an endless glow
Tunneling ahead
I see the light grow
Fighting it, I try
So hard to resist
Struggling for survival
I thrust my arm
I must find the light
I cannot let go
Only human,
My strength weakens
And I am consumed.
Instantly, nothingness
Fills me heart and soul
Take me back!
Find me again!
To no avail I scream
Muffled by the silence
My words don't speak
Tunneling ahead
The light still grows
Barely touching me
Piercing my heart
To win me again
But I can't help me now
For now I am nothing
Empty
I need set free


"Guilt" 6/6/08

Out of balance
Chaotic
The World can turn on a few simple words
Need to
be perfect
Everything in order
Everyone pleased

Sweat, dissatisfaction
Blamed
Self-made scapegoat to save the other
Need to
be perfect
Everything calm
Everyone happy

Self-denial and
Degradation
Doormat to collect the mud of hers
Need to
be perfect
Everything at peace
Everyone at rest

Need to
be perfect
Everyone satisfied
Feelings buried alive
Come like the living dead awake at night